Vinita Das is my close friend. In fact she is my only friend. Ever since she found me twenty years ago when I was a three year old kid in
My name is Siddharth Mahapodhyaya – People call me Sid. I happen to be a young engineer working for one of the multinational companies in
On a particularly boring day – somewhere between Vashi and Victoria Terminus – I chanced upon an ad by this multinational I have just talked about. I proceeded to their office directly. The fact that I had a masters degree in engineering did boost my chances.
When I walked out with the appointment letter in my hand, I found Vinita there on the road – She hugged me and told me that it was the happiest day of her life. She had just landed a job in the same company. I was on cloud nine. She was on seventh heaven.
Quite a few months after that eventful day – today - I close my eyes praying God that the Bommanahalli traffic jam in
That is how life is. One moment you are on the top of the world and the plane doesn’t land even half an hour after reaching the destination – thanks to a Radar problem… The next moment you are seen waiting for the bus to inch ahead in Bommanahalli or Singasandra.
The next moment however you see Vinita cheering at you from outside. You get up – jump off the bus (It is not moving anyway) and go to her.
“Hi Sid, What are you doing there in the bus?” She asks you.
You think for a moment and suddenly it all comes back to you, “I was sleeping.”
She laughs, grabs your hand and leads you to the nearest coffee joint.
“One by two chai” you tell the tea shop owner. He is puzzled, “One by two?”
You insist and introduce Vinita to him. “My best friend loves Chai.”
He nods and mumbles. He then gives you the one by two chai. You both go to a corner table and start sipping the pathetic liquid.
Neither of you speaks anything. You just stare here and there – finish the chai and get back on the road.
“You look fine now. Get back in the bus and wait for it to move ahead.” Vinita bids a goodbye and disappears.
I trace my steps back to the bus which has moved all of three meters by now.
And then I see the jam in its entirety – below me. I see people staring at me. I am reminded of my childhood adventures; of my university days; of my own life. I feel like I am flying in the air – escaping from the clutches of the material world – a moving transformation into the world of Keats, P B Shelly and William Wordsworth – I see birds chirping. I find purple headed mountains. I see rivers running by. I see myself. I see a blank carpet covering everything. I see finally nothing.
A jolt. I open my eyes. I am looking at an old farm house on the banks of a river. I am floating in air. I see two people in front of me – fighting. I realize one of them is me myself. I also find that the second one is Vinita Das. I don’t quite understand how I am able to view myself. I don’t worry about it. I concentrate on their costumes. Medieval
Suddenly my image draws a sword and beheads Vinita. I try to stop myself. I can’t touch them. I shout… I cry… I run around Vinita’s lifeless body. Another jolt. Everything is fading out. Where is Vinita? What happened to her? Did I kill her?
“No you didn’t” she says calmly.
I stare at her. She is serious. I look at myself. I am fully covered in bandages.
“What happened?” I ask her.
“You were hit by a speeding van when you were going towards your bus” Vinita tells me.
“I thought there was a traffic jam.” I don’t quite understand how a van can speed in Bommanahalli.
“Yes Sid. You thought so. You were preoccupied with something. You didn’t notice the van. It was actually speeding on the wrong side of the road margin.”
I nod. The doctor comes in and asks me. “What is your name?”
“I am Siddharth – people call me Sid. I am not suffering from short term Amnesia. I remember everything clearly. Even the traffic jam. You can ask Vinita.”
The doctor looks at me, “Is she your friend?”.
“Yes she is. My only friend. My best friend.” I pause and then add, “I killed her doctor. I killed her back in the 18th century.. or 15th or whatever.”
He stares at me, “Where is Vinita?”
I look around. She is gone. “I will ask her to meet you.”
He nods. “You told me that you killed her in 17th century. Could you elaborate on that?”
I close my eyes. “I am not sure about the year Doc. I just saw flashes of that incident. I beheaded Vinita – It all happened right in front of me. I think it was my previous birth.”
“Why would you kill your best friend?” he asks me.
I shake my head. “I don’t know. Maybe we were enemies in that birth.”
He smiles, “Well, you’ve got a brand new birth to make up for it.”
Two days later, I come home albeit in a wheel chair. Why did I have to kill Vinita? The question kills me.
“Still thinking about the beheading?” she startles me.
“How do you know?” I ask her.
“You were talking in sleep… I mean when you were unconscious.” She replies.
“Why would I kill you Vinita?” I ask her.
She smiles, “Why worry about it now? I am here for you.”
“But I need to find it out. Leave me alone till I figure this out” I tell her.
She stands up silently, “Is this your final decision?”
I nod.
“I won’t return even if you want me to return.”
I laugh, “Come on! I only asked you to leave me now. Not forever.”
She shakes her head, “You don’t understand. Goodbye.” And she is gone.
I run out from my room. She is nowhere to be seen.
I go to the doctor, “Has Vinita come here?”
He looks me seriously. “Why would she come here?”
“She left my house a while back. I think she is emotionally disturbed that I killed her in 17th century.” I tell him.
He asks me to sit down, “Why don’t you go to her house?”
“I will” I stand up and start walking towards the door.
At that instant, it occurs to me – the realization – the grand old gap in my whole understanding of what life is all about.
I turn back – face the doctor and declare, “I don’t know where she lives.”
He asks me to sit down.
I do that.
“Isn’t it strange that you don’t know your best friend’s home address?”
I nod.
“Why?”
I think about it. Where does Vinita live? I am unable to recall any visit to her house.
“Why not?”
Always she used to visit me. She used to come to me. Whenever I wanted to talk to her, she somehow managed to come to me.
“Does she have a cell phone?” The doctor takes out his prescription pad.
I don’t answer that question. There is a big turmoil – a twister squeezing every part of my brain – there is something wrong – very wrong – with my perception. I see logic and belief contradicting each other. I am confused.
And then the mist clears. I see light.
“So Vinita does not exist!” I shout.
The doctor shakes his head. “She does exist. In your mind. As far as you are concerned, she is a real person. You brought her into this world. From your reference point, she has a valid presence in this world. It is not right to say she does not exist.”
I slump into the chair. Vinita is imaginary. Vinita is imaginary. My God! Vinita is not real.
“Sid, She is real. She has been there all these years for you. Apart from her, you show no other signs of…” He stops abruptly.
I look up, “Dementia?”
“It is not as bad as it sounds.” He tells me.
I nod, “I understand I have this condition. What should I do now?”
His face glows. “The toughest part of the treatment just got over. Once you believe that you have this condition, the rest is just medication and counseling.”
I stand up. “See you later doctor”
“Don’t be too hard on Vinita, Sid. She deserves better treatment.”
“Yes doctor. I am gonna miss her.”
I walk out – into the green plains. I feel the wind chill. I feel her presence in the air. I feel all alone.
“Sid, surprise!” I turn back to face Vinita. She is laughing, “My God! I can’t believe you bought it. My friend Sanjay played his role perfectly. You don’t know where I live? My Goodness Sid! I live right next to your house in B.T.M. Layout.”
I smile; hold her hand and walk with her into the sunset.
The End.
